Public Humiliation

This morning I weighed 124.5.

For so long I have been claiming my weight as "too much" just being totally ashamed of being over 122. 121 was my hover spot for so long, I'm upset that that point seems to be getting higher.

It is down from yesterday though, and that's a good thing. I'm really looking forward to getting a manicure on monday if I can manage to not binge thursday through sunday. I'm doing well though. Yesterday I allowed myself a small treat of 5 licorice twists (130c) and 10 wheat thins (88c) with my veggies and humus. Today I had two small cookies and a decaf coffee with 1 cream (200c).

The weather turned crappy over night so I am headed to the gym after work instead of running outside. I rocked my 30 Day Shred workout this morning. So far I am liking the Fat Burn diet pills I'm taking (for two days) I tend to notice it half way through my work out. I get kind of a "jones" for the exercise and really put some more effort into it. I felt it particularly this morning when I took 2 about 10min before working out. I'll do a more full review of the whole system I bought when I finish with the second week.

This is the bikini I am trying to get into for July 4th and my trip to Jamaica.


That is not how I look in the bikini. I am not quite up to putting my pictures on line yet. I can't get over the thought of displaying my muffin top for all to see. I did take them though. I may eventually be able to do before/after. We'll see.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

What a cute bikini! You should do a before and after in that. Share it or don't but it would be good motivation for you later.

Kitty said...

I ttly agree with Fed Up (again) ..

The bikini is very cute. And the before after shots will be a motivation for you idd.

I bet you will look great by the time you gonna wear it ;)

Harlow B said...

its pretty. before an after shots help you see progress when you dont see any reflected back in the mirror. its kind of a little reminder that your hard work is paying off.

orr it might scare you. When I look at pictures from of my hw (thank god there are only 3 in existance) I nearly have a stroke it's shocking to look at and kinda keeps me going... cuz i NEVER EVERVER want to be back in that place.

~ H

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