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The title of my blog was something that Jillian said on the dvd I worked out to today. And it summed up perfectly how I felt about this fast.

Thoughts about yesterday's fast


First, my fast was about 35 hours long if you count from when I finished eating the night before. Probably more like 30 if you count me digesting that dinner (ew gross). I drank only water and herbal tea. I decided not to do a juice/broth fast because I didn't want to consume any calories. I didn't have any coffee because I though it would upset my stomach and be too much like a beverage I would have on a normal day thus confusing my body and mind. I did some yoga in the morning, and took a 3 mile walk in the evening.

I purposefully picked a work day at the end of my first week (instead of the begining or middle) so that I would occupied while fasting, and basically held hostage at work with out food. I think that strategy worked well, but at the same time, I didn't have enough time to do the other things that were on my list to get done.

I really wanted to pamper myself with a manicure, pedicure, body scrub, face mask, and read all your blogs. But, I ended up going to the grocery store for fresh squeezed juice (for breaking the fast in the AM) and wandering around the store looking at the things I didn't get to eat. Then walking with my mom and sitting in front of the tv. I did give myself a manicure, and do two loads of laundry. I also researched and booked our first hotel in Spain for my august trip.

But I also wasted 3 hours watching the Food Network. God I love that channel! First it was cupcake wars with an indian theme. I love indian flavors. Then 2 episodes of chopped. I had wanted to get to bed early, but the tv watching finished at 11, and I couldn't sleep until after midnight. In the process I realized, that I am a not-so-closet foodie. And I think that I will look into healthy cooking classes or start forcing myself to make the time to make recipes once a week.

The other thing I found hard was other people. I expected some moodiness from being hungry, but surprisingly by the afternoon my mood was quite good. I didn't get irritated at my mother or her husband (not even about the bagels, I just kept my mouth shut). However, having someone in the house when I wasn't eating was hard. I didn't want to say I was fasting because I know they'd label it crazy or unhealthy. But that meant that I had to be sneaky, which just reminds me too much ED behavior. I cut up a bagel and put the toaster down so it sounded/smelled like I was eating it. I left the knife out and the crumbs on the cutting board, then put the bagel in a bag and hid it under some of my other food in the freezer that I know they won't look at (like my coffee). It makes me sad that I have to do it - squirrel away food - on the other hand - these bagels are really good - and I can save a few for after my trip and when they go back to their real house.

I lost 1.75 lbs on the fast. I was hoping for 2, but I'll take what I can get. I hope it stays that low tomorrow. My energy kind of waxed and waned through the day, I found myself most productive at work. Actually completing some projects I was procrastinating on. All in all I think it was a worthwhile endeavor. It was certainly a challenge, but one I was glad to take on. It made me feel strong - oddly considering I woke up shaky and light headed.

I broke my fast around 8:30am with fresh squeezed juice I bought and frozen the day before. I diluted half of it and drank that. It was all I was going to have before working out, but I really needed food so I had two bites of a granola bar. The juice didn't taste fantastic (I'll get a different combo of veggies next time)but, about 20 minutes later I felt great! I took 2 fat burners and did a weight work out (Shred it with Weights lvl 1 - loved it!). I finished the rest of the juice (next time I'll buy a smaller size) even though I wasn't really hungry. I was trying to fill myself up before having to go to this meeting with pizza - only to have that canceled! And guess who has no proper lunch now? Me. It's not all bad. I can actually count my calories properly and not guess and hell, not explain myself to other co-workers.

I am considering adding a fast day this weekend and then moving my other one to later in the week before my potluck. For three reasons - A) I'd like to see if being at home is harder or easier on fasting. I would be able to pamper myself, but I might be tempted by food in the house. I could always go shopping though - I have a couple of binge-free rewards I haven't cashed in for myself (like flip flops). Or head to the library to study. I have a new class that starts on Saturday. B) It would move my fast day off of the day my cousin is visiting and therefore making my family happy (I've already talked to my mom about me bringing my own food). C) I could push my weight down even further.

Another change I would make next time are - I would do my normal AM workout. It is normal for me to do this workout on an empty stomach, so it shouldn't really effect the workout, though it might effect the rest of the day. I may eliminate the walk depending on how I feel. And it was fine for me to workout after breaking my fast with juice.

I love Jillian, and she looks great. But the girl on the right! Wow. I want a body like that.