Eight days a week [8 days]

Sorry, now I've got the Beatles stuck in my head....

Tonight is yet another family get together. The great thing about summer is all the outdoor fun and the people coming together - why does it always have to involve food? Why does socializing mean eating? And now my aunt is adding cake and ice cream to the mix because it's someone's anniversary. Like pizza wasn't bad enough.

Sigh... I'm hoping I can get through it okay then on to Wednesday for a fast day before the big potluck.

Yesterday was a fat day. I just felt really fat all day, probably because of the stupid scale. I'm 118.5 today. Which is exactly what I was Saturday when I started the fast. What's the freaking point? I mean honestly. If the weight loss is going to drop for one measly day then spike and settle to the same. Arghh. I think I can pin point it to eating the wrong stuff the day after my fast. I don't think I can fast and jump right back into carbs the very next day. So... I am going to try again on Wednesday and just before Jamaica.

Insomnia might also be a factor. I'm getting about 4 hours a night which is not enough sleep for losing weight. Ideally I'd get 8, but even 6 is okay. I am 90% packed for both this weekend and Jamaica due entirely to lack of sleep.

So the consesus is that I should keep both dresses. Even my mom liked them on me and she's picky. So, I'm going to leave the tags on them, if I wear them then I will keep them. If I'm back from Jamaica with out having worn them, they go back. I think that's pretty fair. I probably won't buy the VS bikini though. I really need to save money. I've basically made up my mind to move out this fall when my mother returns to the house again. I am too old for this BS of living with my mother. I need my own space. I need her to stop trying to advise me all the time, literally all...the...time. This may involve me actually attempting to find another job too.

So despite my disappointing number today I am feeling pretty good about things. My work clothes are starting to look and feel loose. I'm wearing a skirt that used to be really sexy form fitting and I had to roll it up so that it would look like it fit! It's so baggy. I may have it tailored next summer if I'm still skinny enough for it. In the mean time it's not a sexy '50s high waisted skirt but a normal pencil skirt - it's okay though, I have more of the other kind :)

Sorry, really blah post today - but I'm getting out of work early and I'm out of hear in a minute!

Ali Larter. One of my faves - loved her on Heroes.