Say Cheese [17 days]

Today is father's day and my brother and I are taking him out to dinner.  To the same mexican place we went last month for our birthdays.

The good thing - I already have the nutrition information on my phone. The bad thing - last time I totally went over and then stopped at my fave gas station and bought binge food and binged in my car on the way home.

I looked up the calorie counts of their vegetarian options. Last time I opted for the mushroom fajitas figuring I'd only eat half and be safe. And that worked out so well last time {sarcasm}.I ate the whole thing and then binged on the way home. So this time I am going to opt for a meal that comes in under my calorie limit for the day (including what I already ate for breakfast). Then, if I only eat half I'm doing great, and if I eat it all, I'll still be fine. The unfortunate part is that I have to go with the cheese enchiladas. I know I gave up non-organic dairy for the hormones trying to clear up my skin. But right now, I think the calorie restriction needs to be my priority. I have to get down in the next two weeks. I am looking at that Forth of July potluck on the horizon and freaking out. I just have this feeling I will pig out and gain. So if I can possibly get under my goal before that I should be okay for Jamaica.

I'm also going to make sure that I take a couple of calorie control pills before going into the restaurant, wear tight jeans as a reminder of my goals (and hopefully eliminate the ability to overeat) and drink a whole glass of diet coke at the table before eating anything. I know that puts me over my soda limit again - but, I think I am going to have to drop that goal from my challenge. I will try again when I get back from Jamaica. Again, I 'm so desperate to get down and fit into my bikini that I'm willing to depend on caffeine and aspartame for the next few weeks to do it.

The other challenging part of today is going to be getting cash and a card for my dad and filling up my gas tank. Sounds dumb, but it's near/in stores that I find binge food.  I am going to the gas station by my house that doesn't sell donuts so I know they aren't around and I am not going into the station. I am also not going to buy candy at the store where I get his card. I have candy frozen in my fridge. There is no need to buy more. And there is no reason to eat it. I have my 50 calorie "cookies" in the freezer too. If absolutely need a sugar fix later I can have one of those and still be in the right calorie range.

And now that I've put it on my blog, I am staying accountable! That is what I will order, I will not binge, and I will keep to my calorie limit.

My mantra today: Jamaica, Bikini, Jamaica, Bikini...