Happy Monday [16 days]

Just over two weeks left and I am starting to panic. Mostly because I look ahead I see all of the temptations that are coming way. This week we get free food Wed and Thursday at work. Wednesday I've already requested my healthy pizza, Thursday I think I will just have to make up an excuse. I think I might try to come to work late - I need the front desk computer to do my last class assignment and it will be easier in the evening. So, I might be able to get here late enough to skip it.


My cousin is coming into town next week and my aunt is having everyone over for pizza... on my fast day. I don't know how I'm going to get out of that one. There's no cheese-less, whole grain option with my aunt. And even if there was, it's my fast day! I may have to fake sick and just not go. Oh well, I don't like my cousin's kids, or dog, or husband anyway. Okay, her kids aren't bad. I just get stuck "having fun" with them every visit, which consists of them doing the same cartwheels and crazy dances for two hours while I'm supposed to act like it's cute and different each time. Who says the youngest has to watch the kids anyway? I don't like kids!

Then, there's Fourth of July weekend. I've already had one meltdown with my BF about it. The whole potluck family thing freaks me out to start with. There are too many people I have to be on my best behavior for and I get shy. Then add the food element and I am freaking out already. I tried to get out of going down a whole day early, so I could avoid even more food with his family. I am just afraid that whatever work I do these next two weeks will be undone the weekend just a few days before I have to step on a beach in my bikini.

Now, if I looked like this, maybe I wouldn't worry so much!

The good news is, I lost a pound this weekend! It's not as much as I was hoping for, but it is something. Considering the stress of Friday and having mexican yesterday, I feel like I did pretty well. Yesterday I ordered just what I said I would, and I only ate half of it! I brought the rest to work for lunch. And even if their calorie counts are on the low side, I stayed on track, because I was still under yesterday. That and I am hoping my tomorrow's fast will yeild good results (aka, weight loss I don't immediately put back on). I have been consistently getting 1000-1100 calories and burning 800-900 (except friday) creating a calorie deficit of almost 1000 a day averaged out. On tuesday I'll have at least a 1300 deficit, because that's my BMR and I may walk and do yoga, but I don't plan on running or doing heavy weights.

So, now looking at the numbers, I think that my best defense over the holiday weekend (It's two weeks away, why am I stressing?) is going to be exercise. The BFs brother is a runner, and runs when he's home, his mom has some exercise equipment in their living room... it'll be all good... I'm sure of it.