So, I locked my keys in my car. Getting them out totally ruined the paint on TWO doors and messed up the seal on the driver's door. I didn't get out of work until an hour after my shift ended. I hit rush hour traffic. The body shop I go to is across the street from EVERY fast food joint in town. I still haven't gotten to take my test. My mother is watching a movie at an alarming volume and there is no way I can concentrate. I had a snack when I came home which totally put me at my 1300 calorie limit for the day, but I'm still hungry. I am so tired I can't decide whether I should nap and take my test when she's asleep or go to the library to take my test now. I'm afraid that would entice me to binge if I'm out and around restaurants and cafes. But I'm also afraid that I'll be hungrier when I wake up and want to binge I haven't yet. Despite all of this I haven't binged. Even though I really wanted to after I saw what was done to my car in the context of helping me and as I was going through crappy traffic. It was all I could do not to stop and get a latte and donuts... yeah, I can't leave the house. I'd be eating with in minutes.
It'll "only" cost $80 to fix the damage to my car, but I just bought a $1200 plane ticket for August, and I'll need at least 1 if not 2 more to complete the trip. I haven't even looked at hotels or attractions yet. I know, poor me, going on two vacations this summer! But it is totally stressing me out. I like to plan things in advanced and the BF doesn't. He told me not to "worry" about it. It's not worry. It's just that I don't want to be stranded in a foreign country thank you very much. And I'm pissed because all I can think about is this test, and my dance teacher keeps texting me about getting back to lessons, which I can't even consider because of travel stress, school stress, car stress, and BF stress.
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Everything will be ok.
: ) Thank you.
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