Shitty to Smashing

The past couple of days have been shit-tacular.

Thursday I did end up going to the gym and running 3 miles. I felt like I was going to pass out towards the end, but I made it.

And then I bought 2 chocolate bars and a pizza. I ate 3 pieces of pizza and 1 chocolate bar that night.

On Friday, I started the day with 2 pieces of pizza for breakfast and 1/2 a candy bar. Then I had another 2 pieces of pizza at lunch at work - it was a committee meeting and the lunch was provided. At work my boss had brought in cookies for a different meeting so I had a couple of those. At dinner I went out and got chocolate covered pretzels and twizzlers and at the last 3 pieces of pizza.

THEN (yes there is a then) I went out to meet friends one of whom is leaving the country for a few months (if she ever comes back). I knew if I was going to eat AGAIN it should be a salad, instead I ordered a veggie burger and fries.

When I got home I felt so sick. I was able to purge a little bit. Enough to make me feel well enough to sleep. I felt bad about it, because I told BF that I wouldn't do that again. But I was just trying to make my stomach feel better.

Today I weighed myself. I knew I was going to do a binge-fest yesterday so I didn't weigh myself. I was 123.75 Which, isn't terrible, but I am sure it's because yesterday hasn't caught up with me yet.

So, today I started phase 1 of the Fat Smash diet. I almost failed before I started because the BF wanted to order Pizza for lunch while he packed and before I took him to the airport. I was able to talk him out of it by telling him I had eaten pizza at work yesterday. Instead we went to a place I knew I could get a huge salad and just ordered it with out cheese or croutons and used a really small amount of dressing. So I think it mostly fit in with Phase 1. But, out of 9 days if that's the worst I do I'll be happy! I managed to NOT eat a donut hole when I went to the grocery store even though they have them right there at the front with free coffee. I stayed strong.

I even went for a 2.5 mile run/walk. Though I know it should have been more. I didn't feel like doing anything.