It's a snow day miracle!

Not only did I get to skip work, I didn't gain from yesterday's binge, and I finished that project that I was working on (and I'm getting another one because of it).

Big shout out to Fed Up and Moonlight Mistress. I totally appreciate the encouragement you guys post here when I'm feeling like crap and hating myself for screwing up.

I've decided to look at yesterday as progress. Yes, progress. And here is why:

1. I didn't binge on entire bag of candy. After blogging I put the rest down the garbage disposal, I saved at least 500 calories. I know this because a) I counted what I was throwing out, and b) two hours later I wanted to eat them. Maybe next weekend I won't buy any candy at all.
2. I discovered another reason for my binge eating. Boredom plays a role when I'm stuck at home all day. But so does procrastination. I realize that I was doing this last weekend too. This project just really scared the shit out of me for some reason. Identifying another reason for it, I think, is a step to getting it under control.
3. I didn't eat a whole pizza. I didn't even buy one. I wanted to. I wanted to get snowed in with a large cheese and spinach pizza. I was even an inch away from making my own crust, but it needs 12 hours to do a second rise in the fridge and that wasn't going to cut it.
   
4. I didn't purge! I wanted to a few times, but I refrained. I kept thinking about my teeth. I am terrified of messing them up.
5. My binge lasted only one day. And after throwing away the candy, it didn't last as long as it could have. The last two weekends I had escalated to two, even three days of binge eating. Having managed to do well on Saturday and only losing it on Sunday is a step in the right direction. Next weekend, who knows, no binges at all hopefully.
   

I can't explain why after eating 2500 calories and not exercising (unless you count worrying and pacing exercise) that I still came in at 121.25 today. I am just going to be grateful for it and continue to do better this week.

Challenge Day 7 1/21/2011

Breakfast
Green Juice smoothie w/ banana and pineapple 300

Snacks
Carrots 35
Hummus 50
Granola Bar 130

Lunch
yogurt 80
fruit 35
Oatmeal w/ walnuts and raisins 315

Dinner
W.W. Tortillas x2 270 (one I made a burrito, the other I just ate cuz I love 'em)
1/4 C pinto beans 50
red peppers, onions, tomatoes 55
shredded mex blend cheese 80

Total = 1430
Exercise = 30 day shred lvl 3 (-300); B.L. Last chance workout (-600)
Net Calories = 530
I didn't intend to eat so little, the BF was supposed to come over for dinner so I allotted for a bigger dinner, but he didn't so there you go.