122.5

So, I am pretty much where I was last Tuesday (122.75).

After spending so much time in the gym and watching what I eat WTF?

Okay, so that is still -2.5 pounds in One Week. The rational part of my brain says that's a good thing. Especially when I'm only looking to lose 10 - 15 total.

I am choosing to look at this as a positive. Working out, eating reasonably and I will continue to lose steadily if slowly.

I stopped at the grocery store before work to get frozen berries for my yogurt at lunch. Only to walk out with sliced frozen strawberries IN SUGAR. Arrghh! I am not happy because, I didn't notice until I opened it up and I'm like, this isn't sliced strawberries. This strawberries in mushy something - then I look on the label "sugar added" and the nutrition info 1/2 C serving 150 cals w/ 35g of sugar. This is precisely why I buy plain yogurt. To not have all that stinking sugar! Sigh. I am going to thaw them out and get rid of the mush and just eat some strawberries. I'll only eat 1/4C and hope that it doesn't do too much damage if I spread it out over a week or two. I am going to have to go buy real berries later today though.

Something I realized the last few days. When I get irritated or pissed off I head for junk food.

• Angry at my employers a couple of weeks ago and I headed to Taco Bell for lunch.
• Irritated with the BF for last minute (unforeseen, avoidable) changes to our weekend plans, and I headed to Taco Bell before meeting up with him.
• Irritated by my commute to work grabbed tootsie rolls out of the candy bowl when I got it.

Argh. The problem is that I am mad at other people on whom I can't take out my frustrations, and so I take it out on myself in the form of calorific food that I know I shouldn't eat.

At least now I am aware of the behavior. Maybe now I can stop it.