Quarter Pounder

Today is 123.5.

So not where I was last friday. And I didn't lose the extra weight by Wednesday like I though I would, mainly because I haven't exercised all week. I felt like shit when I got home last night. I did what I could on my costume and went to bed. I woke up with a sore throat today. I can not get sick! I have ridiculous amounts of things to do this weekend. Tailgating, costume making, homework, going out and having fun. It's Halloween for crying out loud. I know it's because of my lack of exercise, not really eating dinner and not getting enough vegetables/real food in my diet that I'm feeling this way. If I can just make it through the weekend.

Even though I haven't exercised this week I am still losing a quarter of a pound every day. That makes me pretty happy. I'm going to have to watch myself this weekend. Which, other than the tailgating shouldn't be too hard. The BF's best friend is coming up for the game so they will be spending a lot of time together and I won't have to eat with them. If I can keep losing the .25 lb  through the weekend I could be down to 123 even by Monday - my official weigh in day.

Despite my gains over every weekend the scale is going down - just not from Friday to Monday.
This month of Mondays has looked like this:
10/3/11 - 133
10/10/11 -128.5
10/17/11 -127.25
10/24/11 - 124.75
10/31/11 - ?

I hate to admit this, but I was up to 137 when I came back from vacation in September. I lost 4 lbs from 9/12 to 10/3 which isn't that great actually. It would have been more but we went to the BFs parents house one weekend. They eat a lot of cheese and snack through out the day. There are always muffins, cookies, and candy (mostly homemade) around. I was really ashamed of my weight after getting down 118 before the 4th of July and then just ballooning because of binge eating, that I wasn't admitting how much I weighed. But I think it's better to be honest about it. If I know you all know how much I weigh, it will be easier to address the voice in my head saying "oh, it's only a pound" or "what is one donut going to do?" which I've come to learn is just my BED talking. I'll now that not only do I have to be accountable to me, but I can tell myself, "tomorrow you have to write on blogger your weight, do you want it to be up or down?"

Since finding and finishing the book Brain over Binge. I've been getting a real handle on my binge eating which is why I think I've been successfully losing since early October. I think I slipped up once since  and it wasn't as bad as it would have been prior to reading the book, because the whole time I knew I was giving in to my addiction and it was less satisfying in moment than it would have been otherwise. I am still not making the very best of food choices. But I'm keeping to a regular calorie amount and its working. Once I'm really used to not being a binge eater I am going work on my healthy eating goals. 

Okay, I've got shit tons of non-work related work to do and I'm going to take advantage of being the only one here today (yeah working on a Friday! not) to do it with out getting caught doing it.

I'm sorry that I've been crap about responding to comments and commenting on people's blogs. I usually start to write something and before I submit, I think "nobody cares about that" and delete it. So, sorry. I do read everything though.

@ Miranda: Yeah, the best way to handle it would be to just tell her, look I did my 3 hours, it's your turn I have other shit to do.

@ Star - thanks! I do like the way working out makes me feel - strong and accomplished. But I don't always have time to do it.

@ Kitty (from that's weird) - I never thought of it that way - that it's a compliment if I were on a fitspiration picture. I just freaked out that somebody could be using my image with my knowledge. It's why I've never posted progress pics. I'm terrified somebody will steal them and post them someplace else. And I am following your tumblr now. :)