Sugar, Fat, and Other stuff

Two steps forward, One back. 
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Gained a pound after last night's binge. I've been thinking about it today and this morning on my run. I still woke up early and ran. And I still plan on doing weights tonight.

Besides feeling stressed, feeling totally addicted to sugar, feeling like my binges are getting biggerr and bigger and more out of control. I realized this morning as I listed to one of JM's old KFI radio shows, that I have basically been eating a fat free diet for four days. There is a minimal amount in the humus I buy, and the cheese I've been eating lately has been fat free. I've even avoided my almond butter because of that. I want the flat stomach I had before the 4th of July, but I want to eat my carbs too. So I thought F.F was the way to go.... and as I was listening to Jillian talk, I realized - my body was in a really stupid way telling me what it wanted some freaking fat! To go from binging on fat and breads to cutting them out almost entirely was probably a bad move. (yeah right, what ever makes me feel better. Maybe if I say that often enough, I'll actually believe it)
So, the part of my plan of attack for the next two weeks is to:

1. count my fat calories and grams as well as my calories. I did this back in 2006 when I first got skinny. My aim will be for a semi-healthy 10-20% calories from fat (healthy fats), but I won't freak out if I go over a couple of times.
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3. continue my workouts: running and weight circuits. I am loving Shred it with Weights, JMs kettle ball workout. I am going to do a week at level 1 and a week at level 2 before the wedding.
4. reduce my sugar/candy/pastry intake back to what it was at the end of June. When I have a craving I will make it myself in a healthy manner. I am going to challenge myself to go 3 days with out sugar this weekend (Sat-Mon), I've heard that's all you need to break the addiction... we'll see.
5. reduce and eventually stop drinking soda pop. I wasn't able to stick with my 12oz a day rule last month. But this time I really will.I have 9 or 10 cans of diet ginger ale in the fridge and when those are gone. I'm done. 
6. give up franken-foods. I started re-reading Master Your Metabolism which had me off soda, candy and junk food last year. JM does a good job breaking down the chemicals in the foods we eat
7. schedule and stick to a routine. I think last night's binge was partially brought on by the change in my schedule. I don't usually work evenings, and I know that it shouldn't matter, but do think that when I disrupt my routine, everything else also goes to hell.
8. finish my self-help books. I have started two or three different self help books recently and with everything else I have to do I haven't finished any, nor done the work that would make them effective.
9. reward myself. July 31, if I am binge free I am buying Ripped in 30. If I am binge free 10 days after that I am buying new running shoes. I really, really need new running shoes, but have put it off because of cost. But, if I'm not binging, I'm not wasting money. And, if I can stay binge free that long I will have broken my record for time being binge free.
10. gain control. Of my environment, my food, my life. I think all of the above will help.

Okay, so I know not all of that is necessarily diet related. But I want to change this. I want to be healthy, I want to get back to my goal weight, I want to be fit and strong.