Be Patient with Effort

Not Results

Down another half pound. Today's weight 123.5.

Not as low as I would want, considering I had a -1300 calorie deficit yesterday. But, I think the past 3 days have had a little too high of a deficit. So today I was aiming for 1000 calorie intake and around 1000 deficit, but no more hoping that will convince my body we aren't starving. I want to keep the next few days lowish since I have a Satuday pizza girl's night and Sunday the BF comes home. Unfortunatly I went over 1000. I didn't binge, but I definetly had a moment where I could have. I was just avoiding my second test for this class I am 3 weeks behind in! Did I do any of the work I should have the day I had off work after I got back from Jamaica? No, I binged. Did I do any last weekend when I had free days and no plans? No, I binged. Did I come home and do any work on it this week when I knew the test had to be taken by midnight tonight? No - but I didn't binge. So yay for small steps in the right direction. Oddly enough I think I did pretty good on the test. We were allowed to use our textbooks but not our notes. And even looking a few things up I finished in the right time span and I only question myself on a couple of little things.

I do think that my deficit is more in the 500-700 range. Still on the Okay side, good for slow weight loss, but I'm not looking for slow this week! I am too scared to crunch the numbers right now - but I will put them in my food journal as soon as I'm done and before I go to bed. When I stop writing in my food journal that's when bad things happen. I need the accountability.

I have started a food blog, Here. All I've done is transfer the recipes from my guilt free tap up top over there. But I am going to start sharing recipes that I use and fiddle with. My plan is to make most of them totally healthy. I say most, because lets face it - I have a huge sweet tooth.


I'm slowly making my way through Master Your Metabolism on my lunch hours. JM talks alot of science in this book. Particularly about hormones and how they effect our metabolism - really, how they create our metabolism. It's a section I skipped last time, in favor of some of the more concrete "do this, don't do this" advice. But actually I am seeing alot of correlation between these hormones and what's going on with my body. Like my stress, insomnia, acne, mood swings and new belly fat (even heavy I always carried more weight on the bottom). I pretty much knew that food caused some of it, but now I really am starting to see the number I'm doing on myself.

For example, by procrastinating on things like work or homework I'm stressing myself out and making myself fat. I might exercise, but the stress is causing my fight/flight hormones to go out of whack. All the more reason I need to get my shit together, get organized, get motivated and get things done.

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