15 minutes at a time

I almost didn't come to work today. It's a good thing I did, because one of my coworkers ditched. Thankfully it's slow, and the project I should have worked on yesterday I am doing now.

I didn't get a workout yesterday, but even with a measly deficit I dropped a quarter of a pound. I still need to get my ass in gear, Saturday is going to be a food fest and I need to not gain. Then the BF is bringing me goodies from our brunch spot (from when I visited him) when he comes from on Sunday. It's only 3 days away! I can't believe how much I miss him right now, even though he'll be home soon. It's actually worse than when he first left.

Anyway... visually I can see that my body is getting back to where I want it to be. I can see my triceps again, my collar bone and upper ribs are coming back into view. A few more pounds and my chest should flatten out and finally my thighs. I tried on one of the dresses I took to Jamaica.... so tight. It's amazing what a difference 5 pounds make.

I don't know how I'm going to manage the plan the rest of this week though. My house is a disaster area, I have no fresh groceries in the house, laundry is piled up. My power was knocked out last night and my alarm didn't go off, so I woke up when I should have been leaving for work. I managed to only be 30 minutes late. But no workout. My project is due tomorrow night. And as much as I want to workout tonight at home, I don't know if I will have the time. Friday should be OKAY, Saturday and Sunday I have to catch up (again) on schoolwork. I caught up for the test, but I'm still behind on what was covered after that. Then, I have to start on a paper that's due next Friday...

I am back to feeling like this:

It seems to never end. I know that exercise will help alleviate the stress, but I feel guilty for taking the time to do it. I am trying to get as much of this project done as possible here at work (bad, I know, but it's so quiet!) so that I feel good about taking the time for me. I'm working in 15 minute incremints. 15 work, 5 of fun stuff, repeat. That way I think I'll have a really good handle on it. I didn't bring a book to read at lunch either, so I will have to work then too.

Okay... back at it.