What a great feeling

So, it's valentines day, which I've always been "meh" about. I just don't get that the big gestures made on a hallmark holiday can make up for a lack of small gestures all year round. Like, flowers aren't going to load the dishwasher tomorrow morning, you know?

The BF and I usually stay in for V-day. We cook and open a bottle of wine. I pull out some special lingerie and that's about it. He gets me flowers, I got him liquor the first year, a mix tape and a red tie the second (which funny enough was just a left over Christmas present).  But this year there's no valentines, not even a quiet non-celebratory one. Just an alone one, well, alone but at choir practice.

I am not loving choir this semester. I had alot of fun the last two and this time I just don't like the music except for one Beatles medley and one other by a lesser known poet and set to music (not by my director). But that's like 1/5 of what we are doing. Most of the rest is in Latin and it's church music. It's slow and not really that fun to sing. I pay to be in choir, not much just $60, and it gets me out one night a week. But the last couple of weeks I found that I don't really want to go. Anyway, I'm gonna stick with it for now. Because if I do get a job sometime soon I would have to quit anyway.

So, I weighed in at 123.25 this morning!! I'm feeling pretty awesome about that. My schedule of working out most mornings and then doing cardio (usually running) is working! I'm also digging my hemp protein. I've been adding it to my oatmeal in the morning and making a shake later in the day. I won't lie, it is a little gritty, but not unbearably. And with it I've managed to up my protein to around 40grams when I eat normally. Which is pretty much where it should be to maintain the weight I want to be (110-115).

Yesterday I did not eat normally. I ran errands after work, came home and had so much business type stuff to take care of (saving money by refinancing my car and switching auto insurance). That by the time I got around to exercising - 40min on the stationary bike -  it was late and I didn't really want to eat the soup I made on Sunday. So I just drank a chocolate protein shake (chocolate protein powder, water, banana, spinach, stevia and blend) and then ate some candy. Not a great recovery meal, but it was the last of my chocolate malt balls and I figured I was getting the candy out of the house. Not so I found out this morning - my mom left me a V-day card and chocolate covered pretzels. I'm taking them to the BFs apartment so they are not around me 24/7.

So, this morning I woke up feeling kind of bloated and gross and I thought for sure I would not like the scale. But I was down!  I didn't think I would get this low by today.  I am so happy about that I am trying really hard not to blow it today. I am wearing my Banana Republic wrap dress (size small!) that I have been saving for today just hoping beyond hope that I'd be the same weight as when I bought it (2 lbs less actually!) with lace tights and black heels. I put it on and I look so SKINNY in it. No lie, I am walking down the hallway feeling like freaking Kate Middleton I feel so thin. Granted, it's the style of dress. It doesn't do a whole lot for my curves - that's why I love my pencil skirts  that show off my butt- and I know that to fit into all my clothes I need to lose a few more pounds. But still, I'm feeling the progress!

I want a knock-off of this dress so bad!

Now, if I could get her perfect hair too.