Got to Grow up

My birthday is under 3 weeks away.  I can't even believe how old I am going to be.  Granted I don't look my age (hell, I don't really even feel my age), but that doesn't mean that I am not old.  And when I think about where I'd like to be at this age and stage in my life, I am not even close.


My best friends from high school and college are starting to celebrate 10 year anniversaries (or will in the next year or two). They are on second kids, or second marriages.  My one friend who was a little late finishing college, has even surpassed me. She got a masters degree in something usefull, got married, moved to San Francisco and works for Google.  I still work freakin' part time and have the most commitment phobic boyfriend ever. I can't even seem to muster up any of the personal motivation to change the things I don't like in my life (not the boyfriend though).

So St. Patty's weekend was a total fuck up on my diet. And I let it continue until I had eat away all my progress. Back to the shitty candy and food and donuts. I think I have a severe sugar addiction that I really need to stamp out.

Needless to say that when I get my hair cut this week I will not be any where close to where I wanted to be. And despite being super disappointed I keep eating junk.

I just looked at the last 3 months of my bank statements and realize that I am losing money. I'm not exactly broke,, but still. Since I changed to a better paying job I should not be losing money. But I am.... and then what do I do, go buy more junk food, with money I shouldn't be spending.

At times I just think, what the fuck are you doing with your life? You're an adult, you should know better. *Sigh*  And then I go do the same stupid shit all over again.

that's not me btw.

I ordered Jillian Michae's Body Revolution (off of ebay for like $90) and I am starting a 10k running program. I am doing it with my bf's neighbor to keep me accountable. We are both doing races in June. I have a family vacation in Florida in July which is when I should finish with BR. I know that I eat better when I am exercising regularly, I just need to make myself do it. I am going to do some before/after pics for BR too.  I am planning to start as soon as it comes in the mail!

At some point in time I picked up some new followers last I looked I was at 54 and today I have 60. Thanks if you are new to my blog!