Same Again

I'm working the night shift today. It's pretty quiet which is nice. But it's pretty boring too and makes my night seem way longer than it has to be.

Today the scale denied me. Which at first was really dissapointing. But I was determined not to let it ruin my day. First, I figured out where I went wrong yesterday - I didn't get my planned evening snack because work got insanely busy, so instead I munched at the BFs place; I let my irritation with the BF not really inviting me out with his friends, but to come over afterward become an excuse for emotional eating instead of dealing with just real hunger; I had a salty snack too late at night; I didn't get enough sleep; and finally, I ate a tiny breakfast after driving the BF to the airport in the AM, then took a nap, and then weighed myself.

Okay, so those aren't excuses. I did most things right yesterday. I was pissed off with the BF, because when called after my shift he asked if I was coming over (over, not out) and proceeds to tell me he'll be out with the guys until almost 11. So I'm what, just supposed to wait at his place for half an hour for him to finish? Lame. I was mad. I let him know it and he wrapped things up early. I was still at his place before him, and I nearly stopped off at the evil grocery with the day old donuts. I didn't want a donut, I wanted a pretzel roll. But I knew they were near the donuts. I knew that the pretzel roll is still just refined white flour, and that I'd look at the donuts anyway, and might even buy some because I was angry. So, I didn't go. Yay me on that one!  But I did eat two gourmet chocolate covered pretzels at his place, a 90cal granola bar, and some chex mix. In reality I probably only needed 1 of those things - the granola bar. But as far as things go, I could have done way worse and I know it. He has way more junk food in his apartment than that.

I chose to eat after getting back from the airport at 8:30am because a) I was tired from getting up at 6am, and b) I knew I'd have to do my Insanity workout after my nap and wanted to make sure I had the energy to do. So also not so bad. The goal today is to try to be around 1300-1400 calories to make up for anything I ate over yesterday an hopefully set up for a good weekend and generally just do better than I did yesterday.










Insanity is really kicking my ass. I feel like I am not nearly as sore as I was last week, which means my muscles are used to the moves now. But, I still have a hard time getting through the whole workout. By the time the pushup drills come at the end I am whooped with sweat pouring off of me. I drink around 20oz of water during the workout which might account for that, because sometimes I get done with the workout and even though it felt hard, I think that maybe I could have pushed harder.

I have a really busy weekend lined up - the dr. in the a.m. saturday, a birthday party in the afternoon, and maybe even lunch with a friend that afternoon. Sunday I have lunch, getting the bf and out again with a friend who just got back from being out of the country for 2 years.

I really need at some point to sit down and just work on my resume so I can start applying to jobs already. It's 2 weeks into January and I haven't sent out 1 application. That's bad. Very bad.