Part of me is a little sad because this is the last weekend that the BF will home before his 6weeks of word travel begins.
I'm a little depressed because I still haven't gotten my resume in order and I told the BF I'd have it today to show him. It's just a really overwhelming prospect and a part of me is super scared that I won't be able to find a job.
I keep losing the same 2 lbs and regaining them every freaking week. I am behind my goals by about 2 lbs.
Insanity is definitely helping me with my aerobic conditioning and even my strength. I can do more and better now that I've been at it awhile. But the weight isn't coming off. I hate to abandon it. But I am thinking that I need to suck it up and get a cheap gym membership to run on the treadmill. There is a new gym by my house and I think they even offer free zumba classes.
Last weekend when hanging out with the BF and running errands to get him last minute stuff for his trip, I bought a pair of Vibram Five Finger shoes. They were on clearance at REI and I picked them for $50 (instead of $85). Which means I'm even more anxious to start running again! I used them first for my Insanity Cardio Recovery workout and was fine. It was doing yoga in them. Then I've used them for my other Insanity workouts and my legs feel the difference. My calves are sore and to a lesser extent so are my hamstrings. I've only used them 4 times though, so we'll see how I really end up liking them.
A part of me really wants to start restricting my calories again. I think back to the days when running a couple of miles and doing a weight class a few times a week with a restriction diet of 700-900 calories got me really skinny. But then another part of my brain says that I am setting myself up for failure if I restrict too much. And yet, I was able to do it then. Why can't I now? Why does food and eating hold more sway now than then?
I gave in to donuts on Wednesday. I managed to still keep my calories at 1500,do my Insanity workout and lose weight that day. But I was disappointed that I ruined my healthy eating streak. I managed 3 weeks. I was going for all of January. I also ruined my January goal of no eating in the car.
Since this is the last weekend with my boyfriend for quite a long time, I am tempted to not worry about calories when I am with him. Even though I know this means being up the same freaking 2 lbs on Monday. On the flip side, I wish I had gotten to this weeks goal weight so I don't have to spend my last weekend with him thinking I look fat.
I ended up going to Banana Republic to use my stocking stuffer ($20 BR cash to use by 1/31) on Wednesday too. They were having an awesome sale. The sweater I wanted wasn't there in my size. They had an XS which maybe I could have swung, but not and worn anything under it, and not buttoning it up. Which sort of defeats the purpose of having a cardigan. I did get a red shrug though. Not exactly what I was looking for, but it'll work. I also picked up a white jacquard skirt, a pair of gray trousers, and a high collared short sleeved hot pink blouse. The trousers I bought in a size 2 - way too tight. They might still be scandalously tight when I can fit into them, but I'm hoping they will be motivating. The blouse I bought in an XS it pulls a little across my bust, but I think it was more to do with the giant bra I was wearing that day. The white skirt is a 4 and it's minimally tight. That only needs a few more lbs for me to wear it. It was all clearance and they were offering 40% off on top of that. So everything was a freakin' steal. The shrug alone was originally $56. I got it for under $6.
Sorry for the bipolar post - and for saving up a week's worth of entries for one day! I'm hoping that January wasn't a total wash and that for the most part I did stick to healthy habits so come February when the BF is gone I can really get into shape and slim down.
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I think you're absolutely right, I get the same kind of response when we get on to the topic of animal welfare and the meat industry, because I care and I make an effort, and they don't - so they think I'm silly. I get that it's a psychological response and they're trying to protect their ego, but it's SO annoying.
Please be strong and stick to eating healthily and working out, by restricting too much you are setting yourself up for failure because your body will be forced to binge. Continue being as great as you are now, and the results will come. They will come, and they will last.
Sounds like you made some great bargains, I love sales!
Sorry about the wall of text xx
Yeah for some good shopping deals. I love that. I think you are doing the right thing by not over restricting. You kept trying it and it didn't work so this is something new to try to stick with. If anything like you said, I'd try changing up the exercise. Enjoy the last weekend with BF. Enjoy but don't binge...gain the darn 2 lbs and then you will have plenty of time to focus and get to your goal.
Love the photo!
Oh I ttly loved that pic too! Hope you had a good weekend. I know what you mean it not feeling like Friday.. But I was soo happy that the weekend was finally there.
Let me know how those shoes feel like... I have always found them weird hehe.
I am not sure if it is a good idea for you to restrict your calories if you are going for the cardio plan I sent you. as you might have seen it is pretty intense.
What he says is to eat 10 calories per lbs of your goal weight. so if you aim to be 120 - it is 1200 calories ect. And he goes by the zig-zaging thing you already do, AKA having a weekly calorie budget and not daily.
I really believe the combo of his calorie program + the exercise plan will give insane results..
and if you already are thinking about going to the gym - you ttly should try it :)
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