Drastic times

call for drastric measures.

So, I really would like to lose some weight by the time I go on vacation in July. I have only budged the same 3 pounds over and over again for five months. I've got to change something.

I've toyed with the idea of taking more of my BFs adderall which I haven't done in two years. Or trying to get some ephedrine on-line. It's super hard to get because of the stupid ban on selling it. (Yes, I've looked into it).

So far I have only gone so far as to try buy some glucomannan. It's basically a water soluble plant fiber. That fills up your stomach before you eat. I bought a powder and I mix 1tsp with water and drink it. It has to be done very fast because it starts to congeal. It can be used as a thickening agent in foods (like gravy) for people who can't use flour or cornstarch. The first couple of times it was kind of hard to choke down - like with all fiber taken this way it's a choking hazard without enough water - but I take it with more than 8 oz now and then have some more water right afterward to wash everything down. Apparently it's the ingredient in shirataki noodles and with the powder it's possible to make your own. I don't think I'll go that far tho.

I have to say, as an appetite suppressant, it's pretty good. I've noticed it's better if I wait after taking it to eat. Then I seem to feel full before I normally would. It worked great this weekend when I was out with the BF - I drank some before going to a restaurant with him. I ordered an appetizer and a side of asparagus. I ended up eating like 4 asparagus spears and half of the appetizer - one piece of eggplant parmesan.  This weekend is the first in forever that I've lost over the weekend. It's those same 3 pounds, but hopefully they're gone for good this time.

Considering trying to find a diet pill to go on top of it. I liked Jillian's fat burner when I was taking it, but they are in gelatin capsules, which are not vegetarian. Maybe I shouldn't be so picky but I am. I just need something to stop me from eating all the damn time when I'm at home!