I had a cupcake today. I am not even sure the indulgence was worth it. I think I'll still be down tomorrow because everything else was healthy and will only be 1250 cals for the day plus I burned 557 calories this morning before breakfast.

So, my BF has been gone a week I have gotten one voicemail, one I landed safe email, and one go ahead and book what you want for France email. I realize that he's busy. Apparently they are out doing field work all day each day. But still, I managed to be happy with his voicemail for a whole 12 hours. Before I'm sad again. Yeah I'm sad because I miss him, but I'm also sad because it's so easy when he's away. I am really worried about us right now. It might be my depression that is effecting me so I'm not going to just break up with him or anything, but what does that say about us? We spent the whole summer apart with the exception of 1 weekend and two 10 day visits. That's not even 1 month out of 4 and we seem to be OK not speaking or communicating on a daily basis. I know he loves me, but maybe the Bare Naked Ladies are right and absence makes the heart grow fungus.

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3 comments:

Plum Girl said...

My husband and I have only been apart for 12 days in the 4 years we've been together,(except the occasional overnight) and it was torture. I can't imagine being apart for so long.
Even if you are depressed, you should be with someone you can't stand to be without.
Hope things work out for you, love.

Harlow B said...

I agree with what cally said, u should be with someone you can't stand to be without, someone you miss desperately and can't wait to see again. I hope things work out for you with whatever you decide.

Kitty said...

I'm catching up on posts and I am sorry to hear that you are sad. I agree with the other girls. You should be with someone who you can not be without. Someone with the little extra umpf if you understand what I mean.

I hope you feel better soon <3

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