I don't feel like this body is mine. It's not behaving properly, it doesn't feel right. I keep grabbing at parts of myself - my waist, my muffin top - and thinking where did this come from? When I run it's not as easy as it used to be. I don't know if I should chalk it up to the extra weight or to being depressed, but what if something is actually wrong with me?
Strange #2:
So, I have all this extra weight on me. I've lost 5 lbs in 2 days though, so I know a lot of it is water, and I think that I can be at my higher end of normal before I leave next week. But, some of my small clothes are still fitting okay. So what's up with that? My X-small sleepwear from Target still looks okay on me. My X-small shorts from Old Navy too. It makes me extremely angry actually - It's vanity sizing at it's absolute worst. There is no way that at my current weight/size that X-small should fit.
Strange #3:
I'm obsessed with this show right now: Being Erica. The main character is named Erica Strange - and she gets to relive parts of her life that she regrets in order to make her "now" better. It's a canadian show that plays on the Soap Network in america apparently. I found it on hulu, I don't remember how. I'm behind in watching it since I just found it. But if you wantch it she when the actress wears a tank top and turns around - her back is awesome muscular, but in a toned small way. I like it too because her "therapist" comes out with all these awesome quotes.
In other things: Yesterday was good again. I ended up eating alot of calories, just about 1500. It would have been lower, but it was a co-worker's birthday and my boss made brownies. So, of course we all had to have one and tell her how good they were. I ate one, really, really slowly. The birthday girl actually finished 2 before I finished mine. I estimated 200 for that. I did however burn off a ton of calories exercising. My regular AM circuit, and then more than an hour walk/jog. Since I had such a hard time the day before I walked around my neighborhood for 30 minutes before running. It helped alot and I didn't feel the shin splits that I did the day before. When I weighed myself after my run I was a whole pound down from my morning weight! That was pretty awesome.
This morning was also a really good work out, but then my healthy egg bake didn't cook through in time for me to have breakfast so I ended up with a muffin at work. But I only had the one, and I still burned more calories this morning than I've had yet today. So I should still be able to stick to a normal calorie budget.
I can't wait to look like this. I've just got to keep up the hard work to get there:
4 comments:
way to go on your workouts! also that show sounds quite intriguing if only life had redos haha! keep it up lady
Love that thinspo :)
---AK
Strange 2: do you reckon your weights shifted places around your body? Mine seems to have done that, so some of my smallest clothes still fit, but my weight is way up :P
Well done on the workouts :)
Lottie x
I go through periods where I wonder if something is really actually wrong with me and think I might be certifiably depressed... Then other times I know it's just the weight... I feel like sometimes it's just about avoiding the behavior (ie binging) that makes you feel depressed afterword. Does that make sense?
And I hate vanity sizing. I can't even buy bottoms from Old Navy because their smallest is too big, but I can't even fit a 3 in some of the the more high-end shops. Annoying.
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