Checking In With the Numbers

Check In: July 1, 2014

Height: 5'3"

Weight: 133.8 (up from June 28: 132)

Wedding Goal Weight: 120

Ultimate Goal Weight: 116

Bust: (measurements to come)

Waist:

Hips:

Bicep:

Thigh:

Calf:

So, to keep this blog from becoming nothing but my wedding. I'm going to try to get back to what this blog was meant for... keeping me on the straight and narrow.

With that, the above numbers are the honest to god truth, even as I want to hang my head in embarrassment.  When I first started losing weight in 2006 I started around 145/150.  When I got my tatoo a few months later I was 125. My tattoo is a stylized butterfly. I love butterflies and I saw it as a symbol of my own metamorphosis. But here I am 8 years later, bigger than when I got it, nearly as big as when I started.

I've got to make a change & I'm trying to figure out how to get it together.

I ran a race a little over a week ago - I've done it two years in a row. Last year I ran a 9:54 mile (not phenomenal, but good for me) this year, it was 11:16. I couldn't even run the whole thing, which I did last year as well.

It doesn't help my attempts to keep a workout schedule, that every other weekend I'm flying to see the FH. He's living in temp housing and has very few ameneties so we end up eating out a ton while I'm there.

During the week I am pretty good (with the exception of yesterday) doing a no dairy, no wheat diet (other grains are fine) which seems to be working some. Or it would be working if I didn't cheat 2-3 days a week.

I'm getting so tired of this same old merry go round. I feel like I'm always saying how I hate this weight, hate only having the same 4 or 5 things to wear.

We got invited last weekend to a party by one of the FH's friends (I don't like her much, but she lives here, so it isn't going to matter for long) and I had a melt down about my clothes (again) because nothing I wanted to wear fit. I wish I could bottle the frustration I felt that night and keep it with me, so that I understand when I'm choosing between making something healthy at home or going out, or eating out of a box, what will happen if I make the wrong decision.