At least I look skinny

 At 6am this morning I weighed 127.25 (down a quarter of a pound) and then 126.75 after my run. So that's minus about 1/2lb of sweat. Which is awesome. My goal for the forseeable future, even if I fall off the healthy food wagon, is to go to bed weighing no more than 1 lb heavier than I weighed in the morning. If can hit dead on even better. But I think 1 extra is reasonable for water and food. Especially if I eat at a normal dinner time and go to bed a few hours later.

My mom said I look skinnier today. She said I looked like I was losing weight. I'm not, but it was still  nice to hear.

I've managed two workouts yesterday - 30 day shred level 1 and a run. Then a run this morning. It was not fun. My legs hurt already. It was dark and rainy, but at least not to cold. My BF gave me a headlamp to wear so I can see and I pinned reflective tape onto my sweatshirt so that I can be seen. There only two spots on my route that don't have sidewalks, but even so, I don't want to risk getting hit by a car on those sections. I only have 25 days until my 5k and at this point I can really only do about 1 mile (a little more) with out stopping.

The BF is now talking about taking me to visit his friends in Germany before Christmas. I guess when I told him that he's crap at planning vacations and he only goes for work and/or if someone else plans it, he listened. It was my major complaint in our "argument" about him going to Africa. He kept saying that he'd still want to go back with me. My problem is A) he can't forsee the future, B) he doesn't plan anything, so unless I plan for us to go to Africa it won't happen, and C) that's not the point I wanted us to go together and experience it for the first time together.

Anyway, tickets are expensive and I don't have enough miles to cover it, so we shall see if that actually happens. But it's nice to know he's listening and trying.

60 Day Challenge

Weekly challenge: Pick one unhealthy food or habit you have (eg. Artificial sweetener, chocolate, eating after 8pm, skipping breakfast) and aim to go 7 days without eating/doing it.

Okay, as I said yesterday. Sugar is the bane of my existence.  Obviously there are some hidden sugars in things like ketchup and salad dressing. But, for the most part my weaknesses are candy and baked goods like cookies, donuts and muffins. Even though I didn't do well yesterday, I am recommitted to going sweets free. This means no eating from the candy bowl at work-even mints, no buying 1/2 off baked goods as if I'm going to save them for another day (never happens), no buying candy (even the cheap halloween left overs), no partaking of cake left overs in the staff lounge.

Acceptable options include - fruit, no sugar fruit spread (it's made with fruit juice), 0 calorie substitutes like stevia, or sugar free coffee syrup, whole wheat or whole grain breads, dried fruits.

One thing I like to do is take a piece of whole wheat toast, put a very little bit of margarine on it  and sprinkle with stevia and cinnamon - or even better use Ezekiel cinnamon raisin bread, then just a bit of butter and extra cinnamon, or spread with 1/2 TBSP of almond butter. Yum!

11/8 Day two: What is your MAIN reason for wanting to lose weight? (Be honest.)
Because I used to be skinny. Because my clothes used to fit and now they don't. And every time I go out to a bar, club, or dance I feel ashamed that I can't wear my cute clothes, that I have to pull out something bigger to fit over the extra weight. Because I felt better about myself then than I do now.