On My Own

So, with the husband gone and me all by myself in an apartment (yay, less cleaning!) I had hoped to really be able to focus on losing some weight.

Yeah, the best laid plans....

Sadly the only plan I seemed to actually stick to was the go wild and eat a bunch of junk food I would never keep in the house around my husband plan.

Today I weighed in at whopping 145. I am 5'3" and this is basically the top of the BMI chart for me. I was about 150-155 when I started to lose weight back in 2006, though I first started regularly weighing myself around this weight. But at that point I dropped myself to about 800 calories a day and got away with it because I was out of the house for 12+ hours working and going to grad school. I also basically lived on tomato soup, pb &j sandwiches, and candy. And diet soda.

I'm not in that place any more and I would really prefer to do this healthily. My very lowest weight when I had bronchitis in 2008 and basically lived off of a few pieces of fruit everyday for a month, I was 113. It was a little too low for me. I like 118. I think it's a good thin weight, with out being too anorexic looking. At this point though I would even take 120 or 122. 


My normal mindset is to tackle it all at once and start restricting, taking things out of my diet etc, but like I said, I'd rather be healthy about this so... for the past few days I've just been making sure I exercise. My hubby even bought me an activity tracker with HRM for my birthday a month ago (because he knew I wanted it) so I really need to start really using it.

I am doing Rusty Moore's visual impact (I found out about it ages ago through Kitty, but this is the first time I've really tried it), because I can do it with hand weights or at the gym, I can do the cardio on a treadmill or outside. I'm doing it instead of a Jillian Michael's program for a couple of reasons.  All of my exercise equipment is in storage so I am currently using the apartment complex's gym and it would be akward to do a video there. Also, I thought I would switch it up a little bit. The focus is on lifting heavy (which is still pretty light for me) instead of light with high reps. Then doing HIIT for cardio right after.  I like that too because it breaks up the monotony of just running. Even though I would really like to get back into race shape and do another 5 or 8K, I'm going to focus on losing the weight first.

I have done two weight workouts this week and 3 cardio plus a leg day. And I can barely lift my arms. My glutes hurt, my chest hurts.  It takes me maybe an hour to do all of it (I do about 45min of cardio instead of just 1/2 hour though) less on the leg day. And I have never felt this sore since I tried P90X.

My next step is to drink more water --- I just got up and threw out the soda that was left in my fridge. I do have some cranberry juice in the fridge, but if I stick to 4oz in the morning to help take my vitamins, that's only 55 calories, and that is another routine I'd like to get into, taking my vitamins.

Step 3 will be cleaning up my food. I want to be able to do it all, and I am struggling with that, but I don't want to it all right now, then fall off the wagon tomorrow because I restricted too much and went on a binge.  For now, I only want to pledge not to buy any more junk food. No more chips or candy or soda come into the house. I have some chocolate left from a going away party and some potato chips (which I don't like that much really), pretzel crisps and hummus, and some microwave popcorn.  That doesn't sound like much, especially when I probably won't eat the potato chips. But that doesn't take into account what I have already ripped through this week. The relocation company is nice, and they left a huge basket of  "treats" in our apartment when we moved in & with hubby only being here a few days, it fell on me to eat them all.

Anyway... I'm just going to try to be better from now on. Hopefully I can come down a few pounds in the next couple of weeks.  And even more when I go visit the hubby in Europe in June.