Woman at work

My schedule continues to be insane. I get about 5 1/2 hours of sleep. I have succommed to a crash diet because the BF has agreed to a Halloween costume party on the 27th and unless I want to dress like a frump the pirate costume has to fit.  It started out as the Fat Smash Diet, because when I did that back in 2009(?) I lost about 6 pounds in the first week. But, lets face it... it's an F-ing hard diet to stick too. No bread! No pasta! And since I don't do too much dairy anymore no yogurt (even though it's allowed).  And worst of all - no coffee! Which in my sleep deprived state is really tough.

So my diet has been oatmeal and berries for b-fast. A couple of apples during the day as snacks, beans and rice with lots of peppers and onions and tomatoes for lunch, and 2 egg whites also as snacks. I also had some butternut squash soup and vinegared cabbage that the boyfriend made for dinner a couple of nights. But, I have also slipped in some licorice candy and a couple of sandwich cookies which were sitting out at work. On the plus side I am drinking alot more water with out the coffees and sodas etc. And I went and bought a mega multivitamin with tons of B vitamins in it, which I have been taking. But at the same time I am tired, I am headachy most of the day and hungry.  Yesterday I ended up grabbing a handful of granola out of the box, just because I needed something else.

How did I live on 800 caories a day for the better part of 3 years? Wasn't I hungry? And I haven't even been able to work out since taking job #2. 

My plan is to go more precisely by the diet - lots of fruit and veg, some oatmeal and some rice. I may bite the bullet and buy some coconut milk yogurt too. But with more food - and probably 1 carb (tortilla) because it will make eating on the go between jobs easier. I am going to try to get lots of food made up this weekend so I have it ready to go morning, noon, and night. Then when I don't have to do that, I  will have more time when I am at home for things like sleep. And hopefully exercise. I think that I can sqeeze in a 20 minute run or 30DS workout between jobs Tues, Wed, and Thurs if I don't have make food.

I didn't get to do it this weekend because I was spending time with the BF, he's gone to spend a guys Oktoberfest weekend in NY so I will have more time to do what I need to do. Which includes job #3! (yep, I said it) and a volunteer orientation.  Job #3 is just another freelance gig. The dude I worked for in August is back for round 2. Thankfully this time is just an easy double check of what I already did, so I am hoping the weekend will be enough to get it done in. Plus a volunteer orientation for a local animal shelter, which I am so very much looking forward to. Buying groceries, cleaning my disaster of a kitchen (I haven't washed a single dish I've used this week), making food, buying decorations, and trying to come up with a birthday present for the BF are also, all on the agenda. (Phew! I am making myself tired just thinking about it). But, honestly I think that I can figure out a way to do the most important bits and not collapsing in the process.

Each day I wake up a little more exhausted than the morning before I keep thinking $1000 like a mantra. That is how much extra I will make with this temp gig if I stay until the end of October. But after that I am done. I need my time, my sanity and whatever the opposite of stress is, back.

Something to look forward to!

Moonlight Mistress:  It's not pushy :)  I am probably unnecessarily worried, but worried nonetheless about anyone in my real life finding my blog. There's enough on here they might know it's me, but I wouldn't want to give them proper evidence like where I live and my job. I had a scare a while ago, where I read thru FB a real friend's blog and commented not realizing I was logged in here. Even though I deleted the comment, my profile was still there it just said "comment deleted by author" so I feel somewhat justifyably paranoid.