So work is going well. I've basically finished with the first part of my training. I don't get a ton of work, just the "basics" that don't need to be done ASAP. If it's something that can be done in a few hours then I get it so that somebody can look it over first. Which is fine, because I'm slower than everyone else anyway. Though as I learn more and more, and I have to remember more and more I find that mistakes are creeping in. And now is when I can't have that because it's real work not practice training tests.
I put a lot of pressure on myself to be perfect - even with the test I'd kick myself when I did something wrong, or missed something I shouldn't have. I mean, I'm liking the job and everything. This is what I have been wanting to do for awhile now, and that means that I've got some added pressure to do well. I can't afford to suck at this. I can't go back to the work I was doing just because it was easy. I try to tell myself that it was easy because I had been doing it for so long. I don't remember, but I'm pretty sure it wasn't easy when I first started. But it was a different kind of not easy.
Before if some people didn't like my work it wasn't the end of the world - I worked in public service and if Joe Public didn't like, big whoop wasn't going to ruin my day. Now I'm dealing with the business world, clients who are spending money on a service that it's my job to help provide. Granted, being new, I don't handle the most important ones. Add to that the fact that there is a bonus structure in place for high performers and it's a wonder I manage to sleep at night!
I'm also finally making progress getting my weight down. I've actually lost 3 pounds. And I've managed to not gain the past two weekends. By just watching my portion sizes. Of course some of the loss is due to this week's busy schedule. I have gone a few days with no dinner just because by the time I needed to get to bed, I hadn't had time to get any. It seems like I have zero time at home these which is translating to a horribly messy place and a sad clingy kitty when I am at home.
I manage to work out a few times a week, but I'm only 6 - 6.5 hours of sleep a night so I'm not getting up early to do it. This week I only got to work out on Monday so far. But I have a running date with the wife of one of the BF's friends. And hopefully will run with the BF on the weekend too. We've all signed up for a 5k together and last sunday was the first time I have run in a month. I thought my heart was going explode from my chest.
2 comments:
Glad you are liking the job. What kind of work is it? I you can say. They say if you want to make the big bucks you gotta do the big bucks important type jobs that have risk and accountability involved. It does sound kind of scary. I make mistakes all the time. We all do. Most of the time they are fixable although there is some fallout sometimes but still. It's hard to want to be perfect and no that chances are mistakes will happen. Glad the weight loss is going good-even if by default.
Glad you are liking your job :) And you have been done great on MFP. So yaay you :)
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