I do have a pulse

I swear, I am still alive and I am still around.  But I didn't have an internet connection at home until a week ago. My staffing agency will fire me if I use company internet for something not work related, or if I have my phone out. So I try to catch up when I can, but it's not often and there's a huge amount I still need to read. Bear with me if I haven't commented in a long time or don't respond to comments, I do read them!

So far still temping. Like the people, not the work. No bites on any other gigs though. Which has me feeling down. The BFs neighbor basically got his wife a job at his company. She had to apply and interview, but we all knew she'd get it, because they are very into nepotism there.  I know she thinks she won it on her own merits, and sure, if she had sucked she wouldn't have gotten it, but when I hear her go on and on about how she got this opportunity through stellar networking (I found out through the BF that her husband told the recruiter to get his wife to apply) it seriously pisses me off. I don't have a fucking network here. And she hasn't been working full time like I have either, so she had time to put together several applications (she's been on like 4 interviews) I am luckily if I produce 1 a week. It all has me feeling very down.  Especially when the BF works so much I get to see him for a bit on Fri nights, on Saturday, and a little bit on Sunday. Otherwise he's working even when he's in town he may not leave the office until 1am.


My weight is hovering around 124. That's not terrible, most of my work clothes fit - only a few size 2 and XS don't.  But none of my dance clothes do. And I have actually found a studio to go dancing at. I am also going to start taking ballet classes in and "open adult division" at a pretty famous ballet company in the city. I'm pretty stoked for that.   But I haven't really been working out much. I get to bed so late after working on applications that I sleep until the last minute before going to work.  Or I am so exhausted at night I veg and fall asleep in front of the tv. I am surprised noone at work has seen me nod off yet.

I bought this new scale on a Groupon that measures your weight and bodyfat. I missed my medical scale at my mom's house, the one I was using here is not digital so it's impossible to tell really what it was reading, and then depending on where in the bathroom I place it, it reads different. So this one is much better. I tried it like 5 times after first getting it and it always said the same thing. So I think it's a winner. It also measures to the .2 of a pound and that I like. My medical scale was every .25 pounds.

Last night before bed I was 125.4, this morning I was 123.4. Tonight I am 125.  Which means tomorrow I should be 123. I am hoping to hit 115 by Halloween and dress like sexy pirate!