The black and silver ones are on clearance so I may go get one of those soon, the snake skin one I want the most, but I never buy anything full price there. The problem is I am between sizes or I was when I tried them on. And it is totally an issue of vanity sizing because there is no way my bottom heavy body should be almost an XS. I thought if I were really good this week and next that I could go get one of the ones on sale in an XS for my birthday. Little did I know what shit-tacular week I'd have.
The BF and I spent a pretty good day together on Sunday - we got breakfast, he went to play racket ball, I went home to do stuff, then we got lunch and a movie, and I went dancing. We talked about me coming over Monday because Tues/Wed he'd be visiting his parents. I was thinking of doing a resume clinic though, so he said to let him know. Well, Monday comes along and my cat was sick so I spent a good part of the day at the Vet, but I did call him and he says he has plans to get a drink with a girl friend of his. Huh, what? He did try to contact her to postpone, but she didn't answer, so he offered to text her and cancel so I could come over, but I said no. I was already feeling guilty about deciding to leave my sick cat at home for the BF, and then he's made other plans. I also know that this is a girl he dated at one point (or hooked up with or something). He's never actually said that, but I know all of his other female friends, I know their names, I have met them. Except this one he always refers to her as his "friend in pharmacy school" never by her name. She's wasn't invited to his going away party or as far as I can tell any of his group gatherings. He sees her maybe 2x a year and talks to her about as often. I shouldn't feel threatened, but I do. I mean, she has a horse face (but so did his ex-fiance), and she almost got kicked out of school for a DUI (she'd never work as a pharmacist if she'd been convicted). I mean, really? I know they hooked up at a point well before he even met me. But why are they still friends?
Anyway... so I was pretty well pissed about that, my cat is still sick and the vet doesn't know what's wrong with him, then I get a call today and my credit card number had been stolen (I still have the actual card) and used at online gambling sites. I was supposed to see Hunger Games with a friend tonight and I haven't heard from her or gotten a response to my emails in days. Needless to say I am not doing well. The boyfriend called to see how I was and see if we can make plans for tonight or tomorrow and when I tell him I don't know if I have plans or not, he goes off about lame friends that just don't return calls. And it turns out Pharmacy Girl totally bailed on him. After she wanted to hang out with him! And the sad part is, that bit of news totally cheered me up! I know that's mean. But the fact that she either got the message that he was trying to reschedule or she's just a shitty friend and either way I'm okay with that because I really wish these stupid girls would back up off my boyfriend.
The BFs facebook right now looks like a single guy's. He's got pics from his africa trip climbing mt Kilimanjaro with a bunch of people posted by some fitness instructor chick who also posted two pics of them together, then his ex neighbor who I hate came to his going away party and posted a pic of the two of them together. Then pharmacy girl is on there demanding a drink with him before he moves away (I looked at her FB profile so I know it's her). It's infuriating to me that these girls behave this way with him. I mean, I know he doesn't want to be with them, but I think they think they have a chance. He has already told me that he would not do something he knows would send me packing which means he wants me around. I just wish I could remember that all the time.
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I have jealousy problems too. I know I shouldn't considering how my bf is so committed, I still get like that sometimes. I guess it's not because I'm worried about him, it's other people. If that makes sense haha.
Take a deep breath and release it. No use working yourself up about those girls. Your BF is clearly a friendly guy who keeps in touch and stays on good terms with everyone and their mama. I totally see how this could be annoying...but this issue pops up again and again and learning to cope is just a process. Don't let it get to you. I am very familiar with the on the wagon off the wagon cycle. I hate it for myself b/c it means that my weight is affected by social events and what's going on around me when I want to be in control no matter what the circumstances are. Sigh. Those skirts are cute. Just try to get back on track.
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